I guess fish came into my life about a year and a half ago, as with most things I soon found out that they were introduced into my life for a purpose.
Initially and with a bit of a crash, bang, wallop the code word was 'FLOW'
That's what they do, isn't it? fish flow. That is apart from the ones that repeatedly flow upstream to get back to their original birth place to reproduce. That will probably spark some other learning later on!
Setting up the tank
It was all a bit hellish to start with, waiting for the water to become inhabited by bacteria over 6/7 weeks so that we wouldn't kill off all the new arrivals when introduced to the tank. Then when they did arrive it was like a red alert moment. We constantly monitored the water with testing kits and observation sessions. I haven't got kids but it felt like I'd just inherited a load.
Later on, when everything settled down it dawned on me that I was almost pre empting illness and death. Overwhelming worry took over and it became apparent that I had to get a grip. I wrote in my journal one night and realised, HEY PRESTO! my life was like that.
I worried constantly about things, got angry when things didn't go according to plan and felt so strongly that if a job was worth doing, you just had to get on and do it yourself. Fish demonstrated that this was a totally unrealistic way of living. The more I worried, the more the fish seemed to get ill - oh yeah - law of attraction in action - I get it.
There was a procedure to follow, which I did diligently. Water changes, the right food types, pump, filter, etc, etc but if all that was done and there were no more steps to take, ultimately I just had to leave the fish to their own devices and let them get on with it. I couldn't interfere anymore, it was out of my control.
I finally sat back and just let them be. You might think that all this is a bit fruit battish, they're only fish after all. But take another look at the photograph, it's not just a fish, it's a life form, a personality and it's beautiful and it's right here in my home allowing me to share in the wonder of creation and nature, oh and teaching me a life lesson.
Finally I was able to release control. My next mission was to do this in my day to day life. Reiki is a mighty helpful tool in this process so I used a method of reprogramming my mind to enable me to release my need for control. (See below 'to reprogramme your thoughts')
Once I'd done that, the doors seemed to swing open and allow light into my heart. It became clear that the one thing that would help me to progress was to open to love in a much bigger way. Funny how you bumble along and think you're doing the right things, that you've worked through all the crap once and for all and then it comes right on back and smacks you in the teeth. Surprisingly it was ok though. I just gave in to it all, deciding that it was highly necessary for my survival and for my process of growth.
I sat and meditated each morning with the intention that Reiki would open my heart to love. I visualised a lovely Power Symbol in my heart and soon I was able to sense a white light, surrounded by pink emanating from my heart chakra. The more I focused on this process the more I felt something changing. There was a feeling beginning to mature within me, a spark of something brilliant.
I began to feel a more powerful form of Love, like I'd never felt before. Then I realised I could feel this love at other times of the day and it calmed me.
I knew then that I had to start to focus on Love as much as possible in whatever I did. Life has changed since then. When I look at someone I focus on my heart. When I talk to someone I focus on my heart and hold the thought that I feel genuine love for them.
I noticed that I was able to sit and watch my fish and focus on my love for them, as part of the 'oneness' that exists - for essentially we are all one. They represent my shift from separateness to a truer understanding of the whole. When I see them I comprehend the magnificence of what's around me and can't help blessing all the things that are part of my life that I previously took for granted.
To reprogramme your thoughts:
Draw the Mental/ Emotional symbol on both your hands - if you don't have the symbols then simply intend to open to Reiki for the purpose of releasing old thought forms.
Place one hand over your Third eye and the other at the back of your head in line with the first hand.
Leave your hands in this position repeating 3 times 'Reiki heals my thoughts about .....................'
You can also use affirmations that state the new thoughts that you wish to evolve:
My mind is filled with calm
My mind is filled with healthy and positive thoughts
My heart is open to love
I am open to positive change
Feeling love and letting life flow
In order to help me to open my hear to love I spent time giving Reiki to my heart chakra.
I drew the Power Symbol on my palms, then the Emotional Symbol and placed them both in the heart area. You can either do this by placing them across the chest, or one hand on top of the other, or any way that feels comfortable for you. If you're not attuned to the symbols simply open to Reiki and state your intention, then place your hands over your heart in the same way.
I visualised the Distance Symbol reaching out from my heart to the source of Reiki like a bridge between the physical and spiritual realms. I affirmed that all that blocked my heart from filling with love, was now transmuted into light.
I pictured my heart filling with the beautiful white light and pink that I spoke about earlier.
Then I worked on actually feeling LOVE. I asked Reiki to assist with my feeling genuine LOVE in my heart, the love that comes from the Source.
This last sentence doesn't mean that I didn't feel love, or that what I felt wasn't genuine. What it means is that there is a different level of love that I felt I'd blocked because of not wanting to open myself to hurt. Now was the time to release all this and move to a new level of loving. One that was non judgemental, that allowed me to flow.
A handy little affirmation for the time was: I Trust and Flow wherever I go.
Now I watch my fish and think to myself - I flow so much more freely. Everything is so much more pleasurable. I just allow things to happen and trust that its working out exactly the way that it's supposed to. If you replace worry with LOVE it's such a magical shake up.
Flow my friends,
Don't fight the current.
Allow the tide to wash over you, to carry you, to cleanse your spirit.
Do the fish!
Blessings
Mavis.
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