Monday 9 January 2012

How did I get here?



I wondered how I'd explain about reaching this years 'Word of the year'. 

Last year I decided that resolutions were no good.  They were so restrictive that my will to stick to them only lasted a few weeks, a couple of months max.  I was very hard on myself too, so, non achievement hit me hard.  Enough of this I declared last year, having read about other lovely individuals who had tried and tested choosing one word to focus on for the year.  If you type 'word for the year' in the search engine you'll find inspiration too.

Goddess Leonie is one of the lovely people that inspired this change of heart. I've signed up to Goddess Leonie's newsletters and am so inspired by her genuine love of life but also of her ability to share exactly what she feels, baring herself to all, so to speak.  Her artwork is colourful and naive in a way but it always makes me smile.

Christine kane This was the first time I came across creating a word for the year.  The link takes you to a pdf (hopefully) that will help you to think about, perhaps choosing your own word.

Anyway that's how it all came about, in brief.  Last years word was 'Potential'.  A Tough one, but one which led to many changes and realisations about my self, my thoughts and the things that were restricting my growth.

One thing that focusing on my potential did, was to open my eyes to the amount of fear that I held on to.  Oh WOW did this realisation blow me away.  I'd previously thought of myself as confident and assertive etc.  On reflection I was angry much of the time and so afraid I used to tense my muscles to the extent that they hurt so much I'd cry.  What a nightmare!  Actually NO, it was a great adventure and one that made me change considerably if not completely.  I can honestly say I'm not angry anymore and my muscles don't ache.  I love life again.

I read a number of books that helped to change me too.  One, possibly the first to really have an effect, was The Shack, by William Paul Young  It started to change my relationship with the thoughts I had about God.  It also woke within me a earning to answer more spiritual questions related to God and to my relationship with Love.

Another book that has led me to think differently is A Return to Love - Marianne Williamson It's based on A Course In Miracles. 

Anyway all these things led me to realise I'm capable of a lot more than I ever believed I was, that and the fact that I ran my first Marathon had a profound effect.  Even if afterwards I concked out because of overtraining - part of my all or nothing life style.  I've learnt to balance things too, along the way!

I have arrived at the word 'Love' because I want to experience it in all ways.
Recently I've spent a lot of time meditating on the feeling of love, from deep within my heart and it's a wonderful warm feeling, something that feels like it's been dormant for a long while.  Although I've felt love I have never experienced such a profound inner love, it feels too good to let go.

There was an awakening to the fact that I could now learn to love myself, it's a great sensation to let go of all the judgement and to be kind to myself for a change.  For once in my life I want to know all aspects of love and this year I shall expand on the things that I've learnt and felt so far and it's really exciting.

Reiki has helped so much in releasing what has gone and allowing me to move forwards.  It's helped me to forgive myself and to learn to love myself for real.  My relationship with Reiki has improved beyond measure since deciding to maximise my potential and to move in a new direction.  

I'm certain that I couldn't have made these changes so quickly if it wasn't for regular Reiki and it's guidance.  Reiki in itself has taught me about healing more deeply and my responsibility to be in a space of unconditional love in order to be a more effective channel for it.

Those are some of the reasons that I've chosen 'Love' this year.

So what am I doing about it?  Well when I talk to people I make a concerted effort to focus on love, to truly feel it in my heart.

I sit with the loving feeling and cultivate it until I FEEL it all over my body, all around me.

I sit with my crystals, sending them Reiki, love and appreciation.  This has been a magical experience as many are now changing in colour, the Quartz are clearing and really sparkling.  It reminds me of how blessed I am to walk on this earth every day and of how much I take for granted. 

I make a conscious effort to bless as many things as possible in a day with sincere gratitude and love.

Feeling love means that I can put the Reiki principles in to practise every day. 

Think about what your WORD for the year would be.

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